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How to See in the Dark: A Practitioners’ Dialogue on Working with Darkness in Magic

By Goat, Stang and Key - Sarah Lawless

“The Earth is beautiful, and bright, and kindly, but that is not all. The Earth is also terrible, and dark, and cruel. The rabbit shrieks dying in the green meadows. The mountains clench their great hands full of hidden fire. There are sharks in the sea, and there is cruelty in men’s eyes.”

~ Ursula K. Le Guin, The Tombs of Atuan

In the darkness most people will huddle around the fire and look into its warm bright flames, but sometimes there is a person whose face turns away from the light and looks into the dark of night. They know the light blinds so one cannot see what hides in the shadows or see the beauty of the night with its moon, stars, nocturnal creatures, and dusky colours. Such persons who chose to see the unseen are often shamans, witches, spirit workers, and other walkers between worlds. Come with us away from the fire and learn how to see in the dark.

As above so below. As within so without. We are the children of Nature and so our nature’s reflect our progenitor. We are two sides of the same coin; bright and dark inseparably entwined.  We are good, kind, compassionate, and helpful, but we are also cruel, selfish, destructive, and wrathful. Each of us is capable of acting in benevolence or malevolence. If you truly know yourself and are able to look into the shadows of your own soul, you can make peace with your darkness and embrace it as a lover. To love oneself, or another, or a deity, or a spirit, one must wholly accept both sides of the coin and love ALL that one is. Cherry-picking will not be permitted if you choose to walk the path of Witchcraft for Nature and the Gods embody life, death, and rebirth – creation and destruction – and you cannot have one without the other. To worship life is to worship death. To worship light is to worship darkness. Too much light can lead to being blinded by reality and lacking in truth, honesty, and balance. Too much dark can lead to madness and ruin.

It is not evil to work with the underworld, the ancestors, the night, the moon, death, and bones. It is dark, but there is goodness in it. We fear the unknown and the unseen. Modern witches call the above and the gods, but they often ignore the underworld and the spirits of the dead in their circle castings and magics. The chthonic deities and ancestors are great allies with their vast store of ancient wisdom and knowledge of the other worlds… but if neglected and ignored they become as the uninvited fairy from Sleeping Beauty and we all know how well that worked out. Ignore the darkness within yourself and expect the same results.

“Let he who is without sin cast the first stone.” I know when people try to judge me for working with darker magics that they are only acting out of fear of what is within themselves and fear of what they do not know. Because I embrace the darkness and shadows of my own nature, I accept that everyone contains light and shadow. Who am I to judge someone’s beliefs and practices? This is why I am accepting of and consort with darker practitioners alongside healers and white witches.

The wolf does not apologize to its dinner, the lightning to the tree it strikes, or the bee for its sting. As a witch I will not apologize for my nature. There is a reason poison plants are associated with us: they are poison and medicine, witch and witch doctor. There must be balance. Be too light in your measurements and nothing will happen, be to heavy handed and you will kill instead of cure. The witch is the fulcrum and magic is the lever. Accept responsibility for your power and accept there may be consequences for your actions. Complete awareness is key. Be grounded and balanced in your judgements before you perform magic. Be always clear headed and pure in intent whether the magic you will work belongs to the light or dark. In honesty and truth, with yourself and your spirits, you will find the balance.

~ Sarah Lawless, The Witch of Forest Grove

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“…the belief that witches exist and that they can work supernaturally to the injury and even to the destruction of their enemies — is the heritage of the human race. The Englishman of the sixteenth or seventeenth century did not excogitate or dream it for himself, or borrow it from the Continent, or learn it from his spiritual advisers whether before the Reformation or after. He inherited it in an unbroken line from his primeval ancestors.”

~ George Lyman Kittredge, Witchcraft in Old and New England

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At midnight upon my path the moon rides black underfoot and the dusty road sparkles overhead. The whole viridarium of arte lies astride my path, and in accordance with the deathless ones and my spiritus dictatus I make my way down crooked roads towards sabbats sometimes remarked as obscene, deranged, or blasphemous as they often contains sex, blood, bone, chthonic gods, and other items of ill repute amongst the current neopagan world. I oft look to antiquity to inspire my path and note the long and unbroken history of many types of magick which neopagans discard as “black,” and bring them in close to my heart in the silent stillness of night. I incorporate the light as well, I do not judge or discard merely based on what others concern themselves with.
Personally I do not define acts which I do as black nor white, as to do so marks actions themselves as evil, and not the intentions behind them. Doing a love spell for someone who isn’t yet ready for love is considered “evil” to me, but sprinkling some powders to get rid of an abusive boyfriend is not. My gods, spirits, and ancestors do not punish me because I defend another by attacking their aggressor, bind a rapist, blast a bigot, or curse a murderer. After much meditation, then confirmation with divination, these artes are worked; and when done so they are true, just, pure, and in accordance with the highest ethics and code of law I have: that between myself and my gods.
Further, I do not consider all acts of “darkness” as evil. Curses (acts of binding malefic magick onto someone) can often be done to protect others and help the target grow / become better (eg: “you shall feel a burning pain every time you hit another unjustly” and soon they stop hitting others); necromancy can be used to contact the dead and help bring closure to the death of a loved one, or cast out an unruly spirit from a simple couple’s new house; etc.
Many have turned up their nose at my work, or informed me of alternate ways I can accomplish my goals. Frequently these methods do not resonate, are inefficient, or wholly ineffective. I also question why I would wish to alter my path, when I am not feeling consternation over it as they are… and my methods work. Hence, I shall continue to walk my crooked road as it reveals itself to me, without judgements or boundaries (yet always within the confines of the law, naturally). My path, with all of it’s blooms & thorns, continually returns a bountiful harvest, and my life continues to evolve for the better for it.
~ Shivian Balaris, witch and potion-smith of Chicago

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My father would speak of the spirits. He gave me his black bird or the black bird left him upon his death and joined me – I know not which, but I take his magick with my left hand. My black bird, eyes eternal, seer of all things. I stand within, looking out at the wondrous light. For our world is formed by this interplay, this dance of the dark and the light. She calls and he comes.

The black bird sits by my side. The bird informs my magick: For it is only when we stand in a place of darkness can we see what lies within. There is nothing hidden when one lives in this place for one can see what resides in the shadows and dark places, one can look out into the light but much is hidden when one stands in the light and looks into the dark. For in the darkness there is truth, the knowledge of self. For me the dark is closest to divinity itself, the journey of one’s soul toward Oneness. It is a journey of self for no other can make this journey but you.

That all creation begins in this place of darkness. It is a place where the spirits dwell. For within the dark all potential resides in its wonder and promise. For within the dark all that is yet to be and all that has been resides. We spend the formative years of our existence in our mother’s dark womb. Our world is about constant change, about birth, living and dying for despite our yearning for grace we consume other souls to survive. We sleep and spend a large part of our lives in the dark. Our earth is embraced by the deep darkness of space, everything in existence is embraced by her loving embrace. The Dark Lady calls and the Lord of Light comes, he comes to her every dawn, for he is the bringer of the light; her lover, her brother, her son. He stands in his magnificent glory. They dance to the cosmic song. For we ourselves are born from this union, the darkness embracing the light. My magick is a product of this dance, this journey toward the One. For I am as dark as my black bird.

~ Mel Tomlinson, Elder of the Wolven Path

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Freya, beautiful sweet Freya. She enjoys a large following as a patroness of love, sensuality, and beauty, but I have found many of my colleagues do not acknowledge her triplicity. Most I find simply are unaware of her status as a triple goddess. As well received as she certainly is around many a frithgarth, horns held high giving praise to her, some might change their perspective should they truly know her. Most know her from tales such as that of the brisingamen, or when Thor had to dress as her to trick a frost giant who wanted to wed her in order to retrieve his hammer. However, Freya and her brother Freyr, being the timeless “lord” and “lady” of assorted other European traditions (and even enjoying new popularity by ignorant new age practitioners unbeknownst to them, oblivious to their true origins), have much less romantic aspects.
Our lady is the mother, maiden, and crone that is Freya, Heidi, and Gullveig. As Gullveig she, being the “old one”, begat sorcery itself! Our lady also lay with Loki and bore Hel, the world serpent, and Fenrir as Agnriboda the jotun! Her various aspects are a bit alarming perhaps at first, though they are very natural to the milieu of reality. She and her male counterpart Odin both head up the pantheon and have many names and disguises. She is none other than Hecate of the witches trident; Nuit, Babalon, and Lilith! To truly know her is to embrace her for what she truly is. She is still beauty and love and sensual pleasure, however, she is attested to in Voluspa (Benjamin Thorpe translation):
“Heid they called her, whitherso’er she came, the well foreseeing volva, wolves she tamed, magic arts she knew, magic arts she practiced, ever was she the joy of evil people.”
Let this revelation not sway you from her company, as the All Father himself has quite a reputation for a “dark side” being the “stirrer of strife” and a well documented history for the use of brutality, deceit, and generally doing whatever he deemed necessary to accomplish his will. The temple of Set among others recognize, as does myself through my own unverified personal gnosis, that Odin is Set, Pan, Lucifer, Ra-hoor-khuit to name but a few. In Scandinavian satanism, the terms Odin and Satan are used interchangeably. Being Pan, he is everything, the whole of good and evil in nature. Perspective is everything and Odin as well as Freya, being representative of the divine masculine and feminine respectively, are the grace that feed the starving wolf cubs and the diabolical killer of the rabbit to be said meal. All is as it must be.”
~ H.J. Winkleman, the wolf wizard of Warren, Ohio

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Land Guardianship

My parents' homestead

Originally published in “The Cauldron“ issue #142, November 2011

The farmer made his way slowly around the whole of his land beating the bounds with a handful of freshly cut birch twigs performing the rite his father had taught him and his father before him on this very land. Finishing his round at the main gate he left some bread, made by his wife that morning, and cheese from their cows on one of the posts and poured a shot of whiskey on the other. He nodded at the invisible outdwellers and continued on his way up the hill to the threshold where field met hedge. His wife waited for him there with a luncheon of food and drink from their land and hard labour. The farmer took a knife out of the sheath on his belt and cut a large square of turf full of grass roots and set it upon the earth beneath the trees of the hedge. Together they ate their meal off of the turf; eating the beef they had raised, the bread baked from their grain, wild greens and berries harvested from the hedges, and drinking water pulled from the well. They ate in silence smiling at each other in contentment. After placing the remnants of their small feast in the hole the earth clod was cut from, they poured out a portion each of milk from the cows, honey from the hives, and water from the well, and put the clod of earth back from whence it was cut. Farmer and wife looked into each other’s eyes knowingly; the rite was complete with the land bound to them for another year.

Wild Solomon's SealThe sorcerer lived deep in the middle of a dark old growth forest whose wights knew nothing of boundaries and ownership. He had come to this wood since he was a small boy and knew it well. Long had he climbed the towering trees, sat silent watching the forest’s creatures, drank the cool clean water of the springs, ate of the wild fruits, swam in its hidden pools, and sat in the darkness of its caves. Long had the boy loved the forest and spent as much time their in solitude as he could. The forest itself at first merely tolerated him for his youth and then grew to care for him and his gentle silent ways. The boy took care of the forest’s wounded creatures, trees and plants harmed by storms, cleaned out strangling foreign plants, and picked up the careless leavings of other people. He did it from love and didn’t think much about his actions, but the forest watched closely and saw the one boy who cared so much above the hundreds who came through the forest and only took from it.

In gratitude for his caring, the wights of the forest made themselves visible to him and told the boy they would teach him all the forest’s secrets. The boy left the comfort and safety of the civilized world behind and the forest cared for him warning him of dangers and showing him the best foods to eat, what plant medicines to use for what ailment, where there were natural shelters to take refuge in during bad weather, and how to make the tools he needed to survive. He grew into a man who spoke the languages of the elements, the birds, land animals, fish, trees and who could shapeshift into them all. He could see through the eyes of the forest creatures from a crow high in the tree tops to a mouse scurrying across the earth. Calling him a sorcerer, people from the surrounding villages started to seek him out for advice on what to hunt that season and how many. Soon they stopped asking for advice and started asking for permission when they saw the misfortunes of those who did not heed him. They started to ask him to predict the patterns of weather, what to do when predators attacked their livestock, or what plants from the forest would heal their wounds and diseases. With the sorcerer as guardian no one wanted to offend the forest lest the game disappear from the woods, the fish from the waters, or the wolves destroy their flocks. They were afraid of the sorcerer and his wildness, but they saw his knowledge of the forest ran deep and they needed it to survive. Generations later the villagers still believed the sorcerer was living in the woods as its caretaker and they were careful to follow his guidance and warnings; living as close to harmony as they could with the forest and leaving the spirit of the sorcerer offerings to appease him. They gave the forest the sorcerer’s name and eventually in the people’s minds there was no separation between the spirit of the forest itself and the spirit of the sorcerer who ever guards it. In the end the sorcerer served the forest best in teaching others to be its stewards. His moss-covered bones lie beneath the roots of a tree waiting for another gentle silent child to climb the ancient oaks and swim in the deep pools.

What is Land Guardianship?

Land guardianship is the physical and spiritual stewardship of wild or cultivated land –the caretaking of its plants, animals, waters, and spirits. It is a path and a practice largely based in animism; the belief that all animal, plants, elemental forces, and land features have souls and sentience and deserve ethical treatment. Land guardians are intermediaries between nature and humankind. Guardianship is not magical environmentalism, but environmentalism can be a part of land stewardship. One can be chosen by the land to become a guardian or one can make a conscious decision to become one. It is better to be chosen and to always have permission. The land must always be willing as guardianship is a life-long commitment; a symbiotic marriage of souls. If you would not force yourself upon another person, than you should not do so to forest, field, and fen. In speaking their oaths to the land a guardian can choose the level of their involvement from that of a simple caretaker cleaning up garbage and invasive plants to the role of a Green King or Divine King who is completely one with the land serving as a full-time intermediary between nature and man and who continues to serve it even after death.

Cultivated Land Guardianship

Traces of cultivated land guardianship in the British Isles remain in the form of beating the bounds, the rites of blessing and protecting of crops and livestock, the carving of protective designs on fence posts, sacrificing portions of livestock and other foods to the fairies or the devil, and giving up a piece of the land to be left wild –known in Scotland as the Gudeman’s Croft. The husbandman’s duties to their land are many. This person is responsible for saining the entire property at the cross quarter festivals with torches lit from a sacred bonfire. The husbandman is responsible for the health, protection, and blessing of the livestock and crops. He/she is responsible for ensuring the happiness of the land’s spirits; the trees, hedges, and waters, as well as the spirits dwelling in any ancestral mounds or more recent burial sites on the property. All souls dwelling up the steward’s land must be acknowledged and appeased.

My father's fields My father's fields

If you have purchased land or own land, no matter how big or small, you must court it, heal it if it is wounded, and win it over to your side with offerings and good stewardship. You must belong to the land in spirit as much as it belongs to you on paper. It is a process that may take years. Declare yourself to the land and, if possible, have the previous owner give to you a clod of earth from the land from their hands to yours to physically show the spirits you are the new caretaker. To avoid an odd conversation, simply don’t tell the previous owner why. If this is not possible, collect wild foods and water from the land, asking permission from each nature spirit, and eat it off of a dirt clod you cut yourself on a mound, hill, other high point, or threshold of the property. Do this once a year in the Spring to renew the bond. As soon as you move in set up protections for your property in the form of wooden staves of rowan, oak, or thorn carved with symbols or runes of protection consecrated to their purpose and driven into each of the land’s four corners during a rite. Ask that your land and all upon it to be protected from storm, drought, disease, pestilence, curses, and evil spirits. Do this every one to five years replacing the boundary staves with new ones when they start to degrade.

Walk the bounds of your property regularly and memorize its every feature and beast. Educate yourself about the native plants and animals you share your land with and how to properly care for wildlife and their habitats. Do the same for any animals you keep and gardens or crops you grow. Give a tithe of each harvest back to the land whether it be meat, grain, fruits, milk, or honey. Keep sacred places clean and unblemished such as graves, groves, mounds, springs, streams, or stones. Plant trees to show you give back for what you take and give the trees on your land regular offerings whether it be practical fertilizer or ritual libations at cross-quarter days. Overall, be consistent, be sincere, and always follow through on any oaths and promises made to your land.

Wild Land Guardianship

Remnants of wild land guardianship in British Isles history are harder to find; forests named after hermits and spirits, stories of hunters leaving one of their deer kills every season on a certain mound or stone outcrop for the Cailleach, ancient tales of sorcerers going mad and dwelling wild in the forests learning its languages and secrets, and the hints in old Scottish folktales of wild women who lived with herds of deer and determined which could be culled that season by the hunters and which were to be left alone.

Birkenhead Lake, deep in the mountains

Wild land guardianship is for shamans, sorcerers, and witches –magical folk with one foot in this world and one foot in the otherworld. Some may have a natural bond with a forest, mountain, wild grazing lands, or sea side from being born and raised there, but others and outsiders must forge that bond over time. Land guardianship can be even more specialized when wild; one can be a guardian of a specific river, spring, hill, grove, or marsh rather than a whole tract of land. Other guardians may be grave tenders and practice necromancy working with the spirits of the dead buried on the land. Sometimes, in old forgotten woods, ancestral spirits can be discovered bound to an ancient burial mound, a gnarled old tree, or a mysterious spring bubbling up from the earth. The steward of a whole region holds the most power and also the most responsibility. This guardian is a type Green King or Divine King; the rain falls with his tears, the sun burns away the clouds when he smiles, a ghostly breeze follows him whispering through the trees wherever he wanders, and the animals act as if tame around him. He is responsible for all the spirits of the land, living and dead, in both worlds. A steward who misuses the power given by the land and its spirits can have that power quickly taken away with the genius loci becoming hostile to that person forever more.

Spend time on the land and get to know its every sound, every creature, every plant, and every pattern of the seasons. Take time to lose yourself in its wildness almost becoming a wild thing yourself. To gain the trust of the land wights align yourself with the trees who are named for truth. If the trees speak well of you the others will believe them and the benevolent whispers of you will spread until many spirits are in your favour. The plants will respond to you first, and then the animals will come to you in the wild and in your dreams, and then the more powerful spirits of the land. Court them with offerings of precious consumables; raw meats, berry and root cakes, handcrafted incense, or beautiful arrangements of fruit, flower, and leaf. If you take of food, water, and other resources from the land you must give back a portion of your harvest in return either in raw form or as a finished product. To further gain the land spirits’ trust practice alignment rituals before going out onto the land to harvest, hunt, or weed. Ingest food or an herbal tea from the land and step in between. Declare your intent to the spirits and ask permission before acting whether your intent be to harvest a certain root or to weed out a bed of ivy to protect a sensitive plant. Always ask permission before attempting anything and always leave an offering after you are successful in your venture. Put back that which you will not put to use: return plant stems to the earth, fish bones and guts to the stream it was caught from, and leaves and bark stripped from wood back to where the wood was cut to honour and show respect to the wild spirits.

Pay attention to nature spirits in all forms

Create a fetiche or vessel for the land spirit to more easily attune to and communicate with it and fill it with herbs, bones, and stones from the land you steward. A fetiche of a bone, tooth, or claw each from a creature of the earth, the waters, and the sky will help to align with the genius loci as well as cross between worlds. Let a staff be your badge of office and let its wood be harvested in a sacred manner from a tree that is King or Queen of the wood –the oldest tree on the land. Carve it with serpents and spirals to represent the land energy. Let the hide of an animal dwelling on your land be your blanket to wrap yourself with when you wish to speak to the animals and the other wild spirits to receive knowledge and move freely with them in the otherworld. Let the drum be your voice to the spirits and beat it when the weather is poor, when the predators lurk too close to towns from lack of food, when luck runs bad –when help is needed.

Today it is no longer feasible or acceptable to run off into the wilds for years as a woodwose apprenticing to the land wights. Many of us are so far removed from nature and our once instinctual survival skills that such an endeavour would likely mean failure or death. The modern land guardian must learn how to balance the wild and modern worlds; to work with the spirits and the eldritch landscape alongside modern conservation groups and the wealth of lore available in field guides and reference tomes. Hold on to that healthy balance between the otherworld, the wild world, and the modern world and you will be able to serve the land as guardian and steward for many years to come.

Bibliography: “The Hair and the Dog” Folklore Hilda Ellis Davidson and Anna Chaudri (vol.104 no.1/2 1993), Priestesses of the Deer Stuart McHardy (lecture 2003), The Secret Commonwealth Robert Kirk (NYRB Classics 2006), Singing With Blackbirds: The Survival of Primal Celtic Shamanism in Later Folk Traditions Stuart A. Harris-Logan (Grey House in the Woods 2006), The Silver Bough vol. I & II F. Marian McNeill (William MacLellan 1959, 1977),

Mise en Place

Tarot, Grandmother Crow, and holy water on the altar

The wood surface washed with florida water, the blue cloth spread, and the wolf fur laden with bone, skull, horn, and wing; the altar is remade and returned to its original home on the antique dresser with its bronze lions. Drums and spirit shrines cover the walls of the temple that is my room. It feels good – like everything is in the place it should be. Cooks would call this feeling “mise en place.” For me, this Vernal Equinox has been all about clearing out what I don’t need while cleaning and organizing what I do need and want in my life – both physically and metaphysically. Sometimes the celebration of a festival doesn’t have to mean a seasonal altar and meal – sometimes it means getting your hands dirty doing things to reflect the flow and energies of said season.

I bought a little cedar wood stand with lovely vine scrollwork last year to display my business cards when vending at festivals, but last night I decided to re-purpose it as a tarot card stand for working on a daily basis with my Wildwood Tarot deck. I pulled a card to reflect the next twenty-four hours and drew the four of bows/celebration – an excellent start to the season of Spring I’d say – especially with the beautiful sunny day I woke up to! Today is for shipping Stang and Cauldron orders of my delicious occult goods and then tonight I’m off to a ritual rehearsal with my fellow witches. Slàinte!

The Witch's Altar

Shrine of the White Bone Mother

Own Your Shit, or How I Became a Witch

The Witch of Forest Grove

Shit’s been getting real. I don’t know if it’s the solar flares, the spring equinox, the dark moon, and retrogrades of Mars, Mercury, and Saturn all happening this week or if it’s my Saturn return really starting to kick in. Welcome to the crossroad folks. I’ve spent the past half-year in a dark night of the soul (albeit a rather cheerful, social one) trying to accept everything the Fates throw at me with the grace and balls of a Lady. I like to think I’ve been doing quite well at it, but some things have suffered a bit while I was figuring out who I am, who I want to be, what I want to do, and what direction to take my art and businesses (you know, the light stuff).  My blogging and writing have definitely suffered. I’ve been so introspective and some of my spiritual practices have felt so private that I’ve had a hard time wanting to write for public consumption. But… Saturn and I have been chatting (it’s much easier to go along with the Old Man than to resist) and he somehow crushed all my fears so that I was left wondering why I let them stop me in the first place.

Saturn says own your shit: I am a bone collector and scavenger of the dead. I am a poisoner and a ritual user of entheogens. I am a healer and cleanser of the soul. I am a seer who sees the future in dreams, visions, cards, tea leaves, and omens in nature. I am a dream walker and shaper. I am a shapeshifter of the flesh and the spirit. I am a witch who consorts with the spirits of animals, plants, and the dead – in this world, in the otherworld, and in the underworld. I am a priestess of Light, Intoxication, Fate, Death, and Sex. This is who I am now.

This is how I became a witch…

I was baptized Catholic so you know I’m definitely going to Hel. I had grown up in Sunday school from when I was born until the age of fifteen – Catholic, Anglican, United… they ran together after a while. In my early teens I had the best Sunday school teacher ever – he taught us all to think for ourselves, to question everything, and to do the right thing instead of what we were told or expected to do. When I was fifteen we were going to a Baptist church (who pretended the Old Testament was a figment of their imagination) and I realized I wasn’t feeling full of God’s love like the others, I had no patience for guilt or shame, and I believed in sex before marriage with anyone you chose. So I left. At the time I thought witches were mythological creatures, cool, but not real.

After that it started innocently enough with my early love of dreams, fairy tales, and folklore escalating into a passion for herbs, astrology, and palmistry. I started lighting candles on the full moon for prayers of blessing upon my family and friends. I started doing bits of sympathetic magic like writing problems on a piece of paper and burning it, wishing things to sort themselves, and then having it work. I found a book of Druidry at my grandmother’s and copied out the symbols into notebooks and as protection runes over the doors and windows of my first dorm room at college. It was then that my roommate admitted to me she was Wiccan. She was a gorgeous sexy Scorpio with dark eyes, skin, and hair. She told me she was a witch, worshipped the moon, and performed rituals. “Wait, witches exist? I must investigate this further.” A successive roommate was also Wiccan and she used to read tarot cards for me. The naughty Libra I was seeing at the time was an energy worker and told me he’d started to practice as a Wiccan. I figured all these Wiccans couldn’t be coincidence and finally researched what it was all about for a few months. I read, I went to local Pagan pub moots, I chatted up the Wiccans, I went to covens’ rituals…

Nope, not my cup of tea. I wanted to be like Malcolm Bird‘s witches and Baba Yaga instead. I wanted the darker more folkloric witches of my favourite childhood fairy tales. It took me a while to find them. In between I found occultism, chaos Magic, energy work, and grimoire magic. I was very good at chaos magic – especially glamouring, curses, energy manipulation, and calling spirits. Sigil magic and Osman Spare turn me on. I consorted with shapeshifters, energy vampires, necromancers, chaos magicians, and a sexy wild witch who’d never read a book on magic or heard of Wicca, but could do things beyond most adepts. She and I were sirens and maenads together in the streets of Toronto; finding magic and making mischief wherever we went. I was a line cook on Bloor St. back then. If you were there at the time, maybe you would’ve seen 20-year-old me in the shady Green Room after a night shift talking about magic with the other cooks over a pint of beer and then sneaking into the alley after to smoke a joint. I read tarot and palms in cafés and did rituals in parks at midnight under the full moon with the crack heads looking on in amusement.

And then I found Traditional Witchcraft. Bells went off, Demons sang, fiddles played… It was dirty and practical – based in the folklore and fairy tales I loved so well. It was folk magic and I fell completely in love. It was pretty much everything I believed and practiced up to that point. I loved that darker, more secretive, devil at the crossroad, dirty blood and bones style of witchcraft. It really turned me on in a way I hadn’t experienced before with magic. It was sexy to me and more alluring than the subversiveness of chaos magic and the dangers of energy work. As you can see I never really went the Goddess-loving route. When I found my “inner goddess” she was Pompa Gira, Lilith, siren and succubus, chthonic devourer of sexual energies… I thought it best my inner goddess should remain inner (unless behind consenting closed doors). Some occultists ritually cut ties with the Church by saying the Lord’s Prayer backwards – I had sex with a girl in front of a church during Sunday service – potayto potahto (did I not mention I’m bisexual?). Now my background and associates may be darker than your average Pagan woman, but I assure you I am a good, honest, sweet, moral person… just more hedonistic and foul-mouthed than most (I did say I was once a line cook). As one of my favourite local singers once said: “one man’s evil is another man’s amusement park.”

We just lost some of the men for a minute so I’ll speak of my less titillating adventures in the Pagan community. Cooks travel. A lot. After working in restaurants and practicing magic in Ottawa, Montreal, and Toronto I moved back home to British Columbia – to the Pacific Ocean and the mountains upon mountains of my childhood. After a horrible experience with a teacher who taught me nothing, but from whom I learned much, I joined local Pagan groups and I went to the rituals and parties of local covens. I attended the local Pagan festivals and Pagan Pride Day. I dated Wiccans. I hung out with more Wiccans, Druids, Heathens, Thelemites, Heremeticists, Hellenic reconstructionists… I started hosting rituals for 20-50 people in my ritual group. It was really good practice and experience – kills stage fright and teaches you how to be practical, entertaining, and facilitate the spiritual experiences of others. I was invited to join a few covens but I turned them down because, as much as I loved the people, I knew Wicca wasn’t for me.

I met my witchcraft teacher by accident (there are no real accidents with Fate, however). We bonded as friends over our love of reading and snarking occult books. We shared our spiritual beliefs and practices almost exactly. I didn’t know who he was. I just thought he was a very cool, wickedly intelligent, and darkly sarcastic man and witch. Our quick minds, sharp tongues, and darker leanings matched perfectly. It was uncanny and wonderful – like being the only philosopher in a small village and suddenly another philosopher comes to visit and you speak for hours upon hours on all manner of things you never could with anyone else around you. We would talk so much and so long sometimes we would forget to eat or sleep. I’m sure his husband thought we were a bit mad. At the time he wasn’t accepting students and I wasn’t looking for a teacher. Some things are just meant to be. He initiated me and trained me. Those rare non-Wiccan witchcraft lineages do exist in North America my friends – they’re just quiet and keep to themselves so as not to draw attention. Most of the great magics going on right now are by those who quietly go about their business consorting with spirits.

My teacher believes in studying paths and beliefs outside of your own and out of your comfort zone. He is wise. I studied Haitian Vodou, hoodoo/rootwork, and shamanism. They seemed so foreign when I first approached them, but after passionate research doors opened, spirits sang, drums sounded… The elements I loved in Traditional Witchcraft were there too. The common elements that screamed at me were spirit work, sympathetic magic, folk magic, and ancestor worship – the working with blood, bones, plants, and dirt. I am not a practitioner of Vodou or Hoodoo, but I know them well and still talk to and feed some of the Lwa. It was at this time I realized and accepted I was an animist and spirit worker, not a god-worker like most modern Witches and Pagans I knew. Learning outside my comfort zone allowed me to return to my craft with missing puzzle pieces and a better understanding of my own path. I found balance in working with the animal and plant spirits of our world, the spirits of the upperworld, and the spirits of the dead in the underworld. I found the World Tree. I learned how to navigate the other worlds. I returned to witchcraft with a cosmology of my own understanding.

Suddenly every fairy tale, folk tale, myth, and ancient symbol I read made sense on a deeper level. Something clicked and I understood the symbolism locked away in some primeval ancestral part of my brain. My abilities as a mystic, seer, and dream walker evolved and strengthened. I suspended disbelief and decided to just go with my visionary experiences and interactions with spirit. Shit got real – fast. I am glad I worked through my fears and went with it. I am grateful I had someone to tell me I wasn’t crazy and what I was going through was normal (for a mystic-witch-seer). And so here I am now; a sane, adept, ever-learning, ever-seeking witch.

I still consort with chaos magicians, energy workers, necromancers, and shapeshifters, but now I’ve added seers, shamans, traditional witches, and rootworkers to the pot. We run wild in forests under the moon and stars beating our drums and calling on spirits. We pass bottles of our home-brewed meads around the bonfires in reverential offering. We ingest leaf and mushroom to open doors to the other world. We whisper to each other of futures seen and deeds not yet done. We live magic.

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Mischief with Magicians

"Aphro" mead

Translate “mischief” to alcohol and dirty jokes and then you have my past week. First I bottled the long-awaited aphrodisiac mead with Holly, Tyson, Saturn, and a boa constrictor. We drank and smoked aphrodisiacs before getting down to work as it seemed most fitting – who bottles a psychoactive mead with a clear head after all? We gathered round the carboy and, as we women hummed while stroking and caressing it thinking sensual thoughts, Tyson read aloud a hymn to the Sacred Whore to fire the blood (and the mead).  I would say it is most definitely consecrated to its purpose! Sex in a bottle, one could say…

Into the bottles precious elixir!

It is a drier mead, but will age very well. You can taste the strawberries, raspberries, and rich, sticky black mission figs. You can also taste the herbs – a goodly amount of rose petals along with about six ounces of my love smoke blend (that can double as a tea) which contains a lot of damiana with lesser amounts of passionflower, lobelia, and skullcap. Since it was made in ritual space with ingredients matching intent and naughtily consecrated – this is a mead to be cracked open and shared with discernment. It’ll be left to age for 6-8 months and then perhaps brought out for a night of wild sex magic or next year’s Beltuin rites.

Now we only have one carboy left to bottle of the five magical meads we made two Samhuin’s ago. The Moon mead is taking it’s time dying. Despite all the bitter herbal entheogens in it (mugwort, wild lettuce, wormwood…) it tastes of grapefruit and jasmine. Soon we will bottle it too and have a sabbat mead for every occasion a witch could need one.

An empty carboy equals happy mead makers

The next day Huntress and Thicket came down from their homestead in the mountains for a surprise attack for the Witch-Seer’s birthday. She was most definitely surprised! Her hubby the (soon-to-die) May King kept our sneaky plans perfectly mum. I gifted her a bird’s wing for her altar and then we all headed to the neighbourhood pub for lunch and beer (mmm oatmeal stout). We told far too many dirty jokes, talked of mead making, building a still, growing daturas, and planned rituals for the upcoming sabbats (mmm… blood and stone and bone and fire).

The Witch and a baby chickadee

After heading back to the house for more mischief and tarot readings, this little baby chickadee flew hard into the window I was sitting by and didn’t get back up. I went outside to check on it. It was breathing and let me pick it up after I said I meant no harm. I cradled him in my hands and he let me check his wings and feet – nothing broken. I just warmed him up inside until he caught his breath. I think he was just in shock. Tiny black eyes looked deeply and calmly into my own – my heart may have melted. Thicket said half-joking, half not, that the little bird probably would’ve died if I’d left it outside and not warmed it with my life’s essence. Instead, the wee chickadee recovered and flew from my hands around the living room before letting me catch him again to be released outside in the garden.

I looked up chickadee medicine in Ted Andrews’ Animal-Speak when I got home expecting something light, but instead read that they teach knowledge and awareness of truth and the ability to speak it with love and healing instead of hurting. Definitely a message for this seer who sees what others do not.

Such encounters have happened to me more times than I can number in my life – saving bees, birds, chipmunks, turtles, moths, spiders… Might explain the ease with which I work with the animal world and shapeshift between forms. No life is too small to be sentient and treated with kindness. Respect every creature — you never know who or what may be looking out at you through its eyes.

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